Today marks the 1 year anniversary of my sister Susan's passing. This day has not snuck up on me. I have been thinking about it since the 1st of October. I miss her. I miss her a lot. She knows my secrets, she also experienced some of them. I think some of those things are what sent her to do what she did. We had a hard childhood. She moved to my Dad's at age 14 so she got away from it sooner than me. She is now at rest with those things, but I miss her. I miss having someone to talk to. At times in our lives, we didn't get along. Before her death is one of those times. I regret that more than most anything in my life. She had bipolar and was sometimes hard to deal with. I didn't return a phone call to her a few days, maybe a week before she died. I so regret not talking to her. But she was in one of those spells where she hurt me. Her words could hurt badly, and at that time, I wasn't strong enough to deal with her. I wish God had given me that strength. She's gone now, and I miss her. I hope she knows I loved her, I protected her, and wanted only happiness for her. I was 2 yrs older than her and was always her protector. I took things so she didn't have to. I hope she realized that was because I loved her. I wish as we became adults, I could have always protected her, but I couldn't. Sorry to babble about this. I am just sad, and I miss her.
Fall is certainly in Ohio. The colors are beautiful. The leaves are all spilled all over the ground. The cool, COLD air is here. We have had some really cold temps for this early in the season, but also nice ones.
The next 2 Tuesdays I have tests at the hospital. Tuesday I am having the stomach emptying test. It's done in nuclear medicine. It is to test the degree of gastropareseis I have going on. I have been having some major stomach issues lately. Then the 3rd of November, I have the wonderful colonoscopy. I sure dread that one. Keep me in your thoughts please.
Thanks to everyone who has left me such kind comments. Those comments keep me going and I thank you so them. keep them coming please!!
I will end with a few pics of what keeps me sane and alive!! GRANDCHILDREN!!!
Matthew, Dominique and Briannah.

Taylor, Morgan, Sydney & Cooper

Brice

Miranda, Arryssa, Kirra, and Daniel

Jayden & Skylin
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God Bless~