Today marks the 1 year anniversary of my sister Susan's passing. This day has not snuck up on me. I have been thinking about it since the 1st of October. I miss her. I miss her a lot. She knows my secrets, she also experienced some of them. I think some of those things are what sent her to do what she did. We had a hard childhood. She moved to my Dad's at age 14 so she got away from it sooner than me. She is now at rest with those things, but I miss her. I miss having someone to talk to. At times in our lives, we didn't get along. Before her death is one of those times. I regret that more than most anything in my life. She had bipolar and was sometimes hard to deal with. I didn't return a phone call to her a few days, maybe a week before she died. I so regret not talking to her. But she was in one of those spells where she hurt me. Her words could hurt badly, and at that time, I wasn't strong enough to deal with her. I wish God had given me that strength. She's gone now, and I miss her. I hope she knows I loved her, I protected her, and wanted only happiness for her. I was 2 yrs older than her and was always her protector. I took things so she didn't have to. I hope she realized that was because I loved her. I wish as we became adults, I could have always protected her, but I couldn't. Sorry to babble about this. I am just sad, and I miss her.
Fall is certainly in Ohio. The colors are beautiful. The leaves are all spilled all over the ground. The cool, COLD air is here. We have had some really cold temps for this early in the season, but also nice ones.
The next 2 Tuesdays I have tests at the hospital. Tuesday I am having the stomach emptying test. It's done in nuclear medicine. It is to test the degree of gastropareseis I have going on. I have been having some major stomach issues lately. Then the 3rd of November, I have the wonderful colonoscopy. I sure dread that one. Keep me in your thoughts please.
Thanks to everyone who has left me such kind comments. Those comments keep me going and I thank you so them. keep them coming please!!
I will end with a few pics of what keeps me sane and alive!! GRANDCHILDREN!!!
Matthew, Dominique and Briannah.
Taylor, Morgan, Sydney & Cooper
Brice
Miranda, Arryssa, Kirra, and Daniel
Jayden & Skylin
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God Bless~
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5 comments:
Sorry about your sister, that sure sucks. Lovely pictures of your grandchildren, enough I hope to keep a smile on your face:) Just last weekend I lost a childhood friend, she died from complications of a stomach ulcer, she was four years younger than me. I posted a tribute to her on my blog and so I am going through some trauma too, a little like you. Good luck with the tests, I'll be sending positive thoughts your way.
Have a blessed Lords Day Debbie . . and keep smiling!!
Thinking of you and praying for good test results.
I am so sorry about the loss of your sister. I pray the good memories will out weigh the bad memories.
Take care and good luck.
Susan
hugs and prayers and yes to the grandkids!
aw Debbie, i thought about you on the anniversary date. You were a good sister, and really, continue to be one. you keep your sister alive in your thoughts and prayers.
The stomach emptying test, egg sammich huh? i dont miss that at all. isnt Gastroparesis fun? NOT!
I am ready to move to Ohio so i can get cold weather and snow. i know how much you hate it!
love you!
Loving prayers are being sent your way. I'm sorry I haven't been visiting you as much. My computer is down. I sneak onto my hubby's for a few minutes at a time, but I try not to tie it up for long periods. I'm hoping my computer will get fixed this week....we'll see!
Blessings,
Beth
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